WALKING ON WATER

In one of my favorite Bible Stories a storm is raging and the disciple Peter steps out of the safety of a Boat to join Jesus who is walking on water. After taking a few steps Peter takes his focus off of Jesus and starts to be consumed with fear from the storm. Peter begins to sink and then Jesus lifts Peter out of the water and asks him why he is afraid.

I truly identify with second guessing yourself for stepping out of your comfort zone as today I woke up paralyzed with anxiety.  I am in uncharted territory; in the past I have let fear of the unknown keep me from stepping into the fullness of my dreams. I would slam into a wall of indecision or uncertainty and give up without a fight. This time, however I have made a decision to move forward in spite of my fears. I began the day with a positive soundtrack getting pumped up by the Rock Band Skillet with songs from their Awake Album. I then went to a restorative yoga class which is a series of poses designed for relaxation. Throughout the class I kept visualizing myself walking on water which to me symbolized rising above my problems, and by the end of the class I could see clearly again.

The ironic thing is that fear is what keeps me relentless in rehearsal until the choreography is as natural as breathing. I am so afraid of making mistakes that I pursue every possible angle taking each moment phrase by phrase until it is perfect. I continue to make discoveries that truly pay off when I step on the stage - my performance is no longer is about the steps but about telling a story.  A wave of peace comes over me and I can feel how every movement connects to the music.

The serenity I feel on stage is what I hope to achieve in my everyday life, so I will keep moving towards faith until fear is completely demolished from thinking.

By: Kamaria George (01/03/2016)